I just ate a whole packet of sour skittles, now my mouth feels really weird. It kinda hurts, it tingles. One of the really stupid things I do, but seriously who cares. Today was super tiring and eventful. First I had tuition at 1130. My tuition teacher was seriously freaking out and going nuts, screaming at me for my chinese deproving. rawr. 2 met Faith, Bernice, Sufen, Prash, Xavier & Damien to watch Garfield2. I paid 7 bucks to laugh at some lame, fat orange cat. Now that reminds me of someone. Anyway, we made like super alot of noise in the movie theater. We took a bus down to Maplewoods for class party, but Prash made us go onto the wrong bus. We finally got there anyway. Sat around and waiting for people to come. Xavier cooked Macoroni and Cheese. The cheese tasted good, cant say much about the macoroni though :x Choey's cookies were nice. It was so stupid. They decided that I should be the first one to be dunked by two idiots Thanks alot. I was the only loser soul that was dunked. Kim, Petra, Lydia and Misuzu decided to be sneaky so they dropped a water bomb from the top, It was freaky. Finally, Ben, Damien, Xavier and Prash got in, the sweet satisfaction of revenge. Someone decided to declare some mini war to get everyone wet So someone threw tissue paper in the pool. We had to spend so much time picking up the disintegrated pieces of tissue. That was so not a smart thing to do. Seriously. Now my calf hurts like really randomly. I think i pulled it falling into the pool or something which is kinda random I got inspiration from Zaneta's room. My room shall be slightly transformed, I hope my parents do not freak out.
You know things are so confusing now. It does not make sense. Everything is just a blur. What IS the point? I really do not get it Someone enlighten me. Is it what you want or is what I want? I do not understand & it is tearing me apart. Happiness? Whats that. It is a mirage, masking what sadness that is inside, struggling to come out. Dont be fooled by the plastic smiles and fake laughs. I have come to a point where nothing seems worth it. Someone pull me out of this insane downward spiral.
RAWR my father is so insanely unreasonable. EVERYTHING is my fault. Cos he is too great in this household for anything to be his fault. It is not my fault that you delete your OWN private and confidential files from the computer. I am the kid, i am not supposed to be cleaning up after you. It sucks how you just BARGE into my room and demand for stuff & if i cant do it. You go on a stupid guilt trip like how i dont take care of you. If I had to take care of you, stop controlling my life because you cant even take care of yourself. I cannot believe you screamed at me and gave me your stupid 'I am pissed off look' it is not even MY FAULT. I seriously cannot stand this Now I have to set the old computer up again, delete every single thing. He wanted me to do it NOW. I am such a loser, since no one is awake or willingly to talk to me I shall rant to my blog. Hello blog, you are such a great pal
Maybe one day I would just blend into the background and cease to exsist. Wouldn't that be a nice fantasy to happen. But it will never happen.